Reflecting back on 2018 as a whole as the year comes to a close is making me realize that life is crazy and messy. Sometimes life even feels out of control. I thought this would be the year that I would get into shape, draw closer to God, have more discipline in all areas of my life. It didn’t turn out that way. There were a lot of ups and downs, my year was by no means a calm and steady year. It was more like a storm, and I often felt like I didn’t have control over my ship… at times it honestly felt like my ship was sinking in the storm.
A favorite song of mine (among many many others) for the past few years has been “Oceans (Where Feet may Fail)” by HIllsong United. The bridge of the song goes like this: “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, let my faith be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.” I have found myself over and over again really meditating on the bridge of this song, and making this my prayer and plea to the Lord. This song was actually inspired by a text in the bible, in Matthew.
“Around three in the morning, He came toward them walking on the sea. When the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were terrified. “it’s a ghost!” they said, and cried out in fear. Immediately Jesus spoke to them. “Have courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter answered Him, “command me to come to You on the water.” “Come!” He said. And climbing out of the boat, Peter started walking on the water and came towards Jesus. But when he saw the strength of the wind, he was afraid. And beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out His hand, caught hold of him, and said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” When they got into the boat, the wind ceased. Then those in the boat worshiped Him and said, “Truly You are the Son of God!”” -Matthew 14:25-33 HCSB
We all encounter stormy weather in life, just like Peter experienced in Matthew. However the stormy weather in our life is metaphorical. It represents everything unknown and scary in our lives. This year for me, that unknown was related to finances and jobs. The beautiful thing about Peter is that he had faith and trust in God enough to walk on water. Imagine trusting someone so much that you believe you can defy the laws of physics! Peter trusted and put his faith in God to guide his steps. When you are faced with anxiety, fear, and the unknown, you have to trust God with all of your heart and know that he will guide you all the way, exactly like Peter did!
But then we see Peter’s faith waver a little. He got distracted by the storm around him and took his eyes off Jesus, his gaze left his Savior. For me, this happened when the doubts started creeping through my mind and I started thinking of all the “what if” scenarios. The longer the year passed by without hearing from God, the easier it was to get distracted by the storm. Peter got so scared, he cried out to Jesus to save him! How often do you get to the point of crying out? Literally dropping on your knees and begging God to come save you? That must’ve been really scary for Peter! As soon as Jesus came back into view, Peter was on calm and secure waters again.
We know by Peter’s example that God will save us when we call on Him. But we can also learn from Peter’s example that God pushes us out of our comfort zone into the water “where my trust is without borders”. This is the only place where our faith could be made stronger: when we are put into a position where we absolutely have to depend on Christ because there is no possible way we could make it through on our own. What are you facing in your life right now where you need Jesus to remind you to not be afraid? Remember that God never fails! He didn’t fail Peter when he needed help on the water, and He will not fail you with a storm you are battling right now.